10 000 lux
They call it a privilege. I would call it an insult.
*****
I am moody today. This must be the lack of light. Pure mechanics. The weather is gray and I despair. Simple cause and effect. I should devote myself to light therapy. 10 000 lux and I'd be a happy woman. It's so simple life, when one thinks of the merits. And 10 000 lux, which is nicer than ECT.
It reminds me that although I would eventually The Bell Jar . Who knows why I stretch a reading that moves me though. How did I do to go about a thousand activities between each reading?
"" Neurotic, ha! "I let out a scornful laugh. "If neurotic IS Mutually exclusive Wanting Two Things At One and the Same Time, Then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth Between Mutually Exclusive One Thing and Another For the rest of my days. "" *****
this summer I was asked why I did not take no holidays. Of course I answered anything, being unable to tell the truth. What good is telling the truth to someone who a) does not really hear b) could return against you, and c) that you're completely sacred. Note that b) is not so important. I do not care basically I just wanted to simplify my life. Keep in mind all you want against me. You will never reach me.
But you, I'll tell you. Why is it that I do about holidays? Because it's too difficult. Live for a few days of life to which I aspire, the life that I partially known and then return later to this day that robs me, it's just too difficult.
devote myself to literature with my love, it's the only thing I want. When I remember all those days we spent side by side to read, write and reflect, in cafes, home or in classrooms, I cry. That's real life for me.
*****
For several days I saw a little, then. I write, I spend time in the company of loved ones and I read. I took the opportunity this morning to put me in the magnificent reading Simon Brousseau is on double room of Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace . I imagine that this reading is not foreign to my present state ... I'm absolutely read Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace , but how I shall succeed in overcoming of 1000 pages, in addition to English? (I'm in this phase where I can not bring myself to read a work translated into English but when reading in English still takes me 2 to 3 times longer ...)
more it goes the more I think I will take no courses to complete my certification this winter. Whether winter or summer, it will not change much. I have an idea that I would absolutely work and I want to have a little time to read too ...
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Colloidal Silver Glaucoma
A spark
This morning like most mornings off, I woke up too early, at about the time that I wake up when I go to the office. Sleep is a mechanical relentless. I would love to sleep longer, but my body used to waking up five days a week always at the same time decided to make it to his head. So here I stand, my love while still asleep. I have yet to drink coffee because I still hope lorsqu'Amélie still asleep eventually return back to sleep against her warm body. At the very least I can enjoy the pleasure of announcing when it will wake up "I wrote on LJ! "- What the delight, I know. Or, is there a greater happiness than to make happy the woman you love? And let's be honest, I also overflows with joy when I come back here. I like seeing one of my dearest friends, whom I unjustly abandoned, though my life is so intimately tied to his.
So I woke up too early, I said, I traveled briefly Facebook then I consulted my RSS reader to see what was happening on the blogs - I do not know why, too, since my rss reader, far from bringing me blogs, me to Pluto , t away. I remember those days where I patiently from one address to another, where I attached each time they deserve, even - especially - those who e ; scribe once every two months ... The truth is that my claims me away from daily obligations blog, I have already said, and that stopping to write about as I stopped to read. The two have been inseparable for me. Should I take both, certainly, but I will certainly start to read.
Looking through my rss reader infamous, so I came across a beautiful text that blip wrote, where he spoke LS fireflies Didi-Huberman. Through his thoughts, twitching wrote this wonderful thing: "How can we make an apology for the time without realizing that our voices faithfully reproduce the hissing a viper. " Aphorism so well crafted that the replays to infinity although we each read is perfectly painful. It took me back to Minima Moralia . I thought that was exactly the kind of sentence that could be found in Minima Moralia .
I thought Minima Moralia, then, and it led me elsewhere. And it put me in fucking. I started to think about these people who stand still in a position to dominate others and complete mastery of their subject. Mostly, it just annoys me, but this morning it makes me furious. And I think it fucking pathetic. It fucking pathetic Always make sure that we will be in a position that will allow us to completely dominate another is fucking pathetic to praise of the other when we ' arranged so that there is always that of me is fucking pathetic to repeat endlessly the same phrases about the same things, it fucking pathetic to ensure that the voice on the other we will never do that to argue in a wide staging is fucking pathetic to think that the other has nothing relevant to say - shit, now burst eardrums and tore up his eyes, for that matter, As well as being so full of yourself, you're obviously convinced that the world did nothing to bring you so much - is fucking pathetic never agree to confront the new, to the non-mastered, it fucking pathetic have traditionally lost the ability to be shaken. It's fucking pathetic. And more and more I write my anger subsides because, in truth, it's just sad to be dead like that, being dead for so long. At the very least, this would just be sad if this rule was not effective ...
This morning like most mornings off, I woke up too early, at about the time that I wake up when I go to the office. Sleep is a mechanical relentless. I would love to sleep longer, but my body used to waking up five days a week always at the same time decided to make it to his head. So here I stand, my love while still asleep. I have yet to drink coffee because I still hope lorsqu'Amélie still asleep eventually return back to sleep against her warm body. At the very least I can enjoy the pleasure of announcing when it will wake up "I wrote on LJ! "- What the delight, I know. Or, is there a greater happiness than to make happy the woman you love? And let's be honest, I also overflows with joy when I come back here. I like seeing one of my dearest friends, whom I unjustly abandoned, though my life is so intimately tied to his.
So I woke up too early, I said, I traveled briefly Facebook then I consulted my RSS reader to see what was happening on the blogs - I do not know why, too, since my rss reader, far from bringing me blogs, me to Pluto , t away. I remember those days where I patiently from one address to another, where I attached each time they deserve, even - especially - those who e ; scribe once every two months ... The truth is that my claims me away from daily obligations blog, I have already said, and that stopping to write about as I stopped to read. The two have been inseparable for me. Should I take both, certainly, but I will certainly start to read.
Looking through my rss reader infamous, so I came across a beautiful text that blip wrote, where he spoke LS fireflies Didi-Huberman. Through his thoughts, twitching wrote this wonderful thing: "How can we make an apology for the time without realizing that our voices faithfully reproduce the hissing a viper. " Aphorism so well crafted that the replays to infinity although we each read is perfectly painful. It took me back to Minima Moralia . I thought that was exactly the kind of sentence that could be found in Minima Moralia .
I thought Minima Moralia, then, and it led me elsewhere. And it put me in fucking. I started to think about these people who stand still in a position to dominate others and complete mastery of their subject. Mostly, it just annoys me, but this morning it makes me furious. And I think it fucking pathetic. It fucking pathetic Always make sure that we will be in a position that will allow us to completely dominate another is fucking pathetic to praise of the other when we ' arranged so that there is always that of me is fucking pathetic to repeat endlessly the same phrases about the same things, it fucking pathetic to ensure that the voice on the other we will never do that to argue in a wide staging is fucking pathetic to think that the other has nothing relevant to say - shit, now burst eardrums and tore up his eyes, for that matter, As well as being so full of yourself, you're obviously convinced that the world did nothing to bring you so much - is fucking pathetic never agree to confront the new, to the non-mastered, it fucking pathetic have traditionally lost the ability to be shaken. It's fucking pathetic. And more and more I write my anger subsides because, in truth, it's just sad to be dead like that, being dead for so long. At the very least, this would just be sad if this rule was not effective ...
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Collectors Plates To Sell
treat from mototoksikoza all guests))
January 8 in 12-00 days, preglashaem everyone on motorcycles Morkovnikov, treat mototoksikoza from everyone!
Based School Stunt Master MotoPortal with Moto Quad Moto School holds barbecues with pokatushki the snow in the Urals with sidecars and pleasant conversations on topics moto;)
The program includes:
- 12-00 gathering guests,
- Test for suitability Professor,
- Pokatushki and Tenders,
- shish kebab, salad, hot tea / coffee.
Entrance fee of 600 rubles per person (for food and gasoline - a gathering is not commercial, to hang himself). Writing to participate by telephone +7 (926) 579-2271 Oleg.
for individual money can go on the square, podriftit (500 rubles per 10 minutes)
Directions:
91 and 791 bus from the station. Kiev Metro to stop "Setunskaya Fortress»
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January 8 in 12-00 days, preglashaem everyone on motorcycles Morkovnikov, treat mototoksikoza from everyone!
Based School Stunt Master MotoPortal with Moto Quad Moto School holds barbecues with pokatushki the snow in the Urals with sidecars and pleasant conversations on topics moto;)
The program includes:
- 12-00 gathering guests,
- Test for suitability Professor,
- Pokatushki and Tenders,
- shish kebab, salad, hot tea / coffee.
Entrance fee of 600 rubles per person (for food and gasoline - a gathering is not commercial, to hang himself). Writing to participate by telephone +7 (926) 579-2271 Oleg.
for individual money can go on the square, podriftit (500 rubles per 10 minutes)
Directions:
91 and 791 bus from the station. Kiev Metro to stop "Setunskaya Fortress»
View Larger Map
Monday, December 13, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
Imagesof Varicose Veins Of The Vulva
Holidays!
With 14 of this month I'm on vacation until the end of the year)), tyrnety will attend, but rarely requested all concerned to address affordable mobile communications)) If someone can not remember the number - write to remind))
8 or 9 January will be Moto skit with skiing in the Urals in the snow and barbecue, in nerezinovoy, as well as enjoyable intercourse and .... still a secret what "and";) all interested in kamenty:) well, or on a mobile phone))
With 14 of this month I'm on vacation until the end of the year)), tyrnety will attend, but rarely requested all concerned to address affordable mobile communications)) If someone can not remember the number - write to remind))
8 or 9 January will be Moto skit with skiing in the Urals in the snow and barbecue, in nerezinovoy, as well as enjoyable intercourse and .... still a secret what "and";) all interested in kamenty:) well, or on a mobile phone))
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