Istqb Paper January 2010

10 000 lux

They call it a privilege. I would call it an insult.

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I am moody today. This must be the lack of light. Pure mechanics. The weather is gray and I despair. Simple cause and effect. I should devote myself to light therapy. 10 000 lux and I'd be a happy woman. It's so simple life, when one thinks of the merits. And 10 000 lux, which is nicer than ECT.

It reminds me that although I would eventually The Bell Jar . Who knows why I stretch a reading that moves me though. How did I do to go about a thousand activities between each reading?

"" Neurotic, ha! "I let out a scornful laugh. "If neurotic IS Mutually exclusive Wanting Two Things At One and the Same Time, Then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth Between Mutually Exclusive One Thing and Another For the rest of my days. "" *****



this summer I was asked why I did not take no holidays. Of course I answered anything, being unable to tell the truth. What good is telling the truth to someone who a) does not really hear b) could return against you, and c) that you're completely sacred. Note that b) is not so important. I do not care basically I just wanted to simplify my life. Keep in mind all you want against me. You will never reach me.

But you, I'll tell you. Why is it that I do about holidays? Because it's too difficult. Live for a few days of life to which I aspire, the life that I partially known and then return later to this day that robs me, it's just too difficult.

devote myself to literature with my love, it's the only thing I want. When I remember all those days we spent side by side to read, write and reflect, in cafes, home or in classrooms, I cry. That's real life for me.

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For several days I saw a little, then. I write, I spend time in the company of loved ones and I read. I took the opportunity this morning to put me in the magnificent reading Simon Brousseau is on double room of Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace . I imagine that this reading is not foreign to my present state ... I'm absolutely read Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace , but how I shall succeed in overcoming of 1000 pages, in addition to English? (I'm in this phase where I can not bring myself to read a work translated into English but when reading in English still takes me 2 to 3 times longer ...)

more it goes the more I think I will take no courses to complete my certification this winter. Whether winter or summer, it will not change much. I have an idea that I would absolutely work and I want to have a little time to read too ...